I received the following from Larae Quy.  I’ve never met her.  She is a retired FBI agent now pursuing a career writing and speaking about life, leadership, discovery and people work. The words are well written and make a powerful point.  I don’t usually do this but hey…here’s some weekend reading.  Enjoy.

The quickest and surest way to get fired as an FBI agent is to lie. Proven lack of candor is automatic dismissal—truth is a precious commodity in an organization whose primary purpose is peeling back layers of deceit to expose cold, hard facts.

Many of us have a love/hate relationship with truth. We tell ourselves we want to know the truth, but we’re very selective about the kind of truth we seek. About others, yes—and usually about world events and situations that impact us directly, but we are less receptive to revelations about ourselves.

In fact, self-knowledge is a two-edged sword because we might find out something about ourselves that we would rather not know. We’ve carefully packaged ourselves to look and act in a manner that ensures success in the world. Our ego has dressed us up for so long that many of us don’t even know how to begin to peel back the layers of illusion to expose cold, hard facts about ourselves.

The Book of LaRae was quite short for many years. I, like most others, lived in co-dependent dramas by acting out the role and living up to the identity I’d given myself. There was little of substance because I hadn’t taken the time to excavate the significance of my own stories and experiences. I had the form but little else.

This is ironic because peeling back the layers to get at the truth was my job. Yet I had never applied the same science to my own life. As a counterintelligence FBI agent, I identified foreign spies operating in the United States and tried to recruit them to work for the FBI. Identifying them was the easy part; I surrounded them with people and other informants that alerted me to their every move.

A successful recruitment, however, means digging deep and finding what gives their life meaning. It is helping that person explore their choices in life so they can make better decisions.
By encouraging people to be truthful about their dreams and goals in life, I empowered them to change direction so they would be moving toward something that had true meaning for them.

When did the Book of LaRae start to thicken up? I was selected as spokesperson for the FBI in Northern California after working in counterintelligence for twenty years. It was a great opportunity, but in a way that I didn’t expect: it gave me the space to reflect on how to use those same counterintelligence skills to look at the role and identity I’d given myself as a way of competing—successfully—in a very competitive world.
As we age, it becomes even harder to keep up false pretenses. It’s why baby-boomers are starting to experience emptiness as the identities they’ve given themselves crumble into layers of fat and wrinkles.
Here are three ways that I encouraged foreign spies—and ultimately, myself—to dig down and discover what gives life meaning:

1. Life Assessment     One of the quickest ways to bring more truth into your life is to     conduct a quick assessment. Assign a numerical number between 1 and     10 to each area listed below. 1 means “not at all satisfied with my     life” and 10 means “completely satisfied.” Remember that a 10     doesn’t necessarily mean “perfect.”
Area of Your Life Your Rating (1-10)













The most difficult numbers are 5s and 6s because they mean you’re  not unhappy enough to do anything about it, but a long way from     being satisfied, too. In other words, “you’ve settled.”     Delete every number that is not an 8, 9 or 10. Either you have what     you want or you don’t. Anything below an 8 means that you don’t     have what you want but you haven’t faced up to it yet.

2. Ask Great Questions     If you want a great life, ask great questions. Questions can help     because they are catalysts that get you to thinking about your own     stories and experiences. The secret of an FBI stealth interrogation     is to never ask direct questions. Instead, come from the side.     For example, questions like, “What is my purpose in life?” Or,     “What do I want?” are too broad to produce a meaningful answer.     Instead, ask yourself stealth questions like “What would excite     me?” “What looks, feels, and sounds like an adventure?”     Other questions to ask yourself:

+ Who is the happiest person you know?

+ Who are the people you like and respect the most? Why?

+ What are you curious about?

+ When does time seem to fly?

+ What bores you?

+ What makes you different from other people or members of your  family?

+ How do you want to be remembered?

+ What is in your bucket list of things to do in life?

3. Keep a Journal     Journaling is a powerful way of excavating the significance of your  own stories and experiences. It’s a very effective way of coaxing     out thoughts, questions, and insights into your patterns of     behavior.     It’s important to keep track of events in your life. This means     more than the “Dear Diary” approach we learned as kids. Journaling     is like homework; only you can do it and it only works if you put     your mind to it. You can only see the significance of events,     people, or circumstances by looking backward. Memorialize the     triumphs but look closely at the failures, losses, and     disappointments. Only by examining your life in its entirety—the     good, the bad, and the ugly—can you gain a deeper understanding of     your experiences.     More importantly, you give yourself the opportunity to change     direction, if needed, so you can explore your choices in life and     make better decisions in the future. Journaling was the tool that  gave me the space I needed to look back at my life and see how I    could move from form to substance.

As you being to tear away at the packaging that your ego has wrapped you up in for so many years, you’ll find something very powerful inside: you. The real person is empowered because you’ll have no need to impress others. Or lie to yourself.